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Sun, 02 Jan 2005 18:38:11 GMT

last entry?? maybe for this lj..new lj for meeeeeee

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add me bitches..

<3 em

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 04:03:59 GMT

went to su dudes house 2day with cass em & dayna..we watched grsttica..it was good except for a certain scene at the end..we missed you courtyou :( tonight i was setting up my answering maching thingy on my cell and in the beginning it plays hawthron heights..woot woot..tomorrow i get 2 go into the city with the family..see ya laters

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 03:47:31 GMT

that was the pic i tried 2 post in the last entry..but thanks 2 court i got it right this time :) yes i no its kinda hard 2 see the pic {WTC with buildings} but thats cause i was using color negitives with a black & white enlarger..hehe..and heres a pic of cass me 7 court when we were at cassies house once {court made us diff. colors}..

lilqaurtz26: look we are blueberries

^^court is soo right..were blueberries^^

uuussssssssssssss

were making silly faces ;)

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 23:20:17 GMT

the other night i had the weridest dream..i was in the cafitra at school and instead of being with kevin sabby & ian like always i was with adam..adam hoo i havent tlaked to in like a month..me and adam were sitting on the floor leaning our backs agaisnt the windows and i was sitting between his legs & he had both his arms around me and we just sat there silently..ppl came up 2 us and asked us 2 walk around with them but me and adam just kept sitting there..silently..and some how without saying anything was ok..like i didnt have 2 tell him that ive been wanting 2 talk 2 him and just sitting there was the way of telling him that..it was kinda werid cause i dont even really like him that much and we dont talk like we usued to and yet during the dream everything was ok and better than wat it is in real life..i guess thats why they call it a dream..

so it turns out i did get my darkroom 4 xmas..and i spent all yesterday setting it up and making the room light-proof..i didnt have black & white film yesterday so i used an old negitive that was color just 2 test everything out cause i wanted 1 use it sooooooo dam bad..i made a print of the WTC that i took when i was like 6 yrs. old..kinda sad pic but i liked it..and it turned out a greyish-greenish color {cause i usued the wrong negitives on perpose}..u can kinda see the photo tho..see..it also looks fed up cause i wasnt careful when i was working on it cause i didnt think it would turn out good so there r spots on it..oh well..today my dad got me black and white film and im already done with half the roll..i plan on finishing it 2night so then i can develope it..i dont no why im writting all of this here..its not as if ppl actually care about the pics im gonna develope..buh bye <3

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 03:26:47 GMT

{x = all that apply, / = i guess, & blank = never}

[ ] I think I'm really attractive.
[ ] I prefer winter over summer.
[/] I am a geek.
[ ] I am a shopaholic.
[ ]I am reasonably intelligent.
[ ] I am attracted to girls.
[x] I am attracted to boys.
[x] I like British accents.
[ ] I smoke regularly.
[ ] I smoke socially.{ive tried??}
[/] I drink socially. {more of when me cass & court get stuff}
[ ] I drink regularly.
[ ] I do "drug(s)".
[ ] I will never date a bad kisser.
[ ] I've lied to avoid kissing them again.
[ ] I brush my hair at least 50 times a night.
[ ] I am religious.
[x] I am not religious but have morals.
[x] I lie frequently. {but only 2 save myself or someone else}
[ ] I am impulsive.
[ ] I am hardworking.
[ ]loved Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
[ ]She's All That is one of my favourite movies.
[/] I am good at History.
[ ] speak more than two languages.
[x] I enjoy taking pictures.
[x] I like spending money on myself.
[x] I like spending money on others.{depends on hoo it is}
[ ] I have a regular income. {no but getting one soon}
[ ] I earn money on a job-by-job basis.
[ ] I pay my own bills.
[x] I rely on my parents for money.
[/] I can cook.
[ ] I enjoy cleaning.
[ ] Tidiness is a must in my life.
[/] I like clutter. love it.
[ ] My idea of good music is Britney Spears.
[ ] I am fashion-conscious.
[ ] I have good taste.
[/] People tell me I have good taste.
[/] I am told I have yet to fulfill my potential.
[ ] I am good at sports.
[ ] I am good at certain sports.
[x] I couldn't do sports to save my life.
[/] I am creative.
[ ] I am extremely artistically inclined.
[x] I want to be an artist when I grow up.{photography is art right??}
[ ] I want to be an engineer when I grow up.
[x] I eat when I'm upset.
[x] I cannot adapt to change.
[ ] I am interested in politics.
[x] I have shoplifted.
[x] I download MP3s.
[x] I have done underage drinking.
[ ] I have gone underage clubbing.
[ ] I can dance reasonably well.
[ ]I can dance extremely well.
[x] I dance like a cardboard gorilla.
[/] I can sing.
[ ] I sing like someone stepped on my foot.
[x]I can swim.
[ ] I enjoy surveys.
[x] I enjoy surveys when I'm bored.
[x] I keep a journal.
[x] My teachers don't like me.
[/] I enjoy controversy.
[x] I can be a bitch/bastard.
[x] I have a thing for bad boys/girls.
[ ] I have tattoos.
[ ] I've been in a nudist colony.
[/] I'm not sure if I want to have children.
[/] I'm not sure if I'll get married.
[ ] I know who I will marry.
[ ] Someone has a crush on me.
[/] I am interesting.
[/] I am a good liar.
[/] People enjoy talking to me.

[/] I annoy people from time to time.{hoo doesn’t}
[ ] I am a born leader.
[ ] I am a born leader but shouldn't lead.
[/] I've snuck out of the house.
[ ] I enjoy felching
[ ] I have a foot fetish.
[ ] I have a shoe fetish
[ ]I watch Sex And The City.
[/] I don't think Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty.
[ ] I want to be J Lo.
[ ] I cut myself.
[ ] I have cut myself.
[x] I hate people who pretend to be suicidal.
[ ] I hate popular people.
[ ] I think cheerleading is a sport.
[ ] I am photogenic.{that’s a laugh}
[ ] I live in Chucks.
[x] I think graffiti is art.
[ ] I have dated a criminal.
[ ] I have been cheated on.
[ ] I have cheated on someone.
[/] I have a temper.{aka when im near my family}
[x] I like playgrounds. {LOOOOOOVE THEM}
[/] I dance in the rain.
[ ] I am obsessed with Shakespeare.
[/] I have tanlines. {call me in the summer}
[ ] My favourite color is pink.
[ ] My favourite color is black.
[ ] I would classify myself as emo.
[/]I am musically inclined.
[x] I like listening to music.
[x] I like music-blasting cars.
[/] I like flip-flops.
[ ] I know what monogamy is...
[ ] ... and I believe in it.
[ ] I want to be a social worker when I grow up.
[x] I have sibling[s].
[/] My siblings annoy me
[ ] I think South Park is funny.
[ ] I prefer Google
[x] I can sit Indian Style.

[ ] I own a cat
[ ] I plan on owning more.
[/] I read a lot.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've let someone cheat off of me on a test

HAVE YOU EVER...
[ ]smoked pot.
[x] kissed someone.
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[x] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[x] been in a fist fight.
[ ] broken a bone
[ ] got hit by a car.
[/] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[/] gone in a mosh pit. {u mean me & the jtwins at relgion school..sure}
[x] stolen something from your school. {ORANGE JUICE!! W/ court}
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.{only to help tho}
[x] had a crush on a teacher.{for like a day tho cause he looked hott in jeans}
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.

[ ] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] lost your sibling.
[x] played 'clue'. {best board game}
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[ ] cheated on a bf/gf.
[ ] been cheated on.
[ ] had your tonsils out.
[ ] had a car
[ ] totalled a car

DO YOU ...
[/] feel loved.
[x feel lonely.
[ ] feel happy.
[/]hate yourself.
[ ] think you're attractive.
[ ]have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[/] listen to Hawaiian Music {in the summer I did}

[ ] listen to underground hip hop
[ ] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[ ] listen to techno.
[ ] have hobbies
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[/] get good grades
[ ] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers
[ ] wear boxers.
[x] wear black eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[/] like the color pink.
[/] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair.{just got it cut but its still long}
[ ] have short hair
[ ] have a cell phone.{getting in like 2 weeks}
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager

ARE YOU ...
[ ] ugly.
[ ] pretty.
[/] okay.
[ ] Handsome.
[x ] bored.
[ ] happy.
[/] bilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] British.

[x] white.
[ ] mexican.
[ ] asian.
[ ] short.
[x]tall.
[ ]realistic.
[ ]sick.
[ ] mad.
[x] lazy.
[x] single
[ ] taken.
[x] looking.
[ ]not looking.
[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[/]scared to die
[ ]horny.
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy
[ ] annoyed.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[ ]in your room.
[x] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[ ] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music.

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 02:37:54 GMT

havent updated in a while {computer was broken}..still cant get aim 3 redownload so im stuck with aol which i never go on so no 1 has my aol sn & i dont have any1s sn on my aol buddy list..im me sometime until aim is downloaded {aol sn = syosemy}..this week was ok..nothing to exciting..today during itlian had to presnt thing project and someone shut a rubber band at me..luckaly for this person i happen to love this person so its all good..2morrows xmas eve {which means presents}..hoping for a darkroom againbut that seems unlikely..

<3em

P.S.--everyone shoot rubber bands at jillian when u see her :)

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 03:03:55 GMT

today was a fairly good day..afetr school i stayed after for fla with some totally cool people..me cass court & ian ordered a pizza..hung out with the jtwins, nicole, sudha, & robbie..then after the late buses were gone we realized the pizza didnt come yet..so me & cassie wait by the door {cause its too cold 3 wait outside {hehe}}..then i say 2 cass 'that car sorta looks like a pizza delivery car' but we dont go out so we ask ryan to go out and ask the guy if hes our pizza delievery dude..and he was!! so we gave ryan some pizza 4 being so cool..then we meet up with alana..she told us about these hott pics she has and she sent them to me..let me tell you these pics are to die for..wish i was there when they were taken..

last night i asked my brother if i could drop my multimedia class cause i hate it sooooooo so much..he siad it might be 2 late and it was sad..but i found out i could drop it at the beginning of the 3rd quater..so 2day when i get home my mom listens 2 a message when im in my room and then she calls me down witha series voice and says 'do u like ur multimedia clas' & im thinking 2 myself 'ohh shit someone called here saying i was sleeping in the nurses office instead of going 2 that boring class' and she goes on about it and says that edwin was conserened that sopmething might be wrong cause i wanted to drop the class..isnt that sweet..edwin went to our parents cause he was worried about me..i love u edwin!!..turns out mother didnt find out about me sleeping instead of going to class & she siad that dropping the class was up to me but the class might 'help my gpa at the ned of the yr' so now i like really wanna drop it but if i tell mother that im droping it shell be a little upset :/

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 03:34:18 GMT

i feel sick and in more than one way..physically & emotionally..i really do feel sick and im sick of this town & ppl living here..they make me wanna leave for good {which i no i say all the time but thats jokingly and this is 4 real} or i just wanna hang myself becuase of this place..which tie should i use..my dads & look all like an insurenace dude or one of my brothers and look like i work at shoprite {even tho i will be working there in a few months}..ugh enough about the ppl that really should even desver a sec in this entry or any entry..ive realized that its hard 4 me to tell ppl how i actually feel..ya this is random..i should go 2 some group therapy thing so i get used 2 telling ppl how i feel..ok thats just a litte werid & i really gotta pee so bye..

<3em

P.S.--stefy is love..& remeber..i wont i really really wont just dont hold me to my promise if i see jake or a group doing it..stefy & emy = gr8ness

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 21:32:09 GMT

i dont no how 2 start this off..i guess i wanted 2 update cause i finially figuared something out..something that my friends didnt get & even i didnt get..i made up a stupid excuse..but now i have a real reason & the real reason im doing this almost seems more retarded than my 1st excuse..its like it {or you} have taken over my whole life..am i really doing this just because of you?? its funny..when im near u..i feel fine..like everything is just put on hold and all that matters is u being near me..but the fact is..we arent near each other enough and it makes me go crazy..so crazy that im doing that thing..it actually makes me quite sick that im doing this 4 you and you have no idea..writting this is making me start 2 cry so i better go and try 2 get you and the thought of me doing wat im doing just 4 you out of my head..

<3em

--i hate the way you make me act..but i love the way you make me feel--

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 03:49:13 GMT

yesterday the danish basketball team came..the guy eddie got is named fredrick & hes 6'7''..all of them r soo tall..eddie & fred said that all the girls think this one guy is hott {and i can see y} so the guy is telling the girls that hes gay so they will leave him along..smart..fred wrote out this whole sheet of sayings in danish for my brother & eddie said hes gonna make me a copy..my favorite saying on the sheet is 'ur mom is my hoe'..hehe..we got pics..ill put them up eventully..oh and the pics i put on from the other day at school i dont think im gonna put up again..2 lazy..court said she might put them on tho..at the danish vs. syosset game we actually won!! i think it was 62-45..i hung out with shairy & matt & some of there friends..it was fun..we think one of the danish kids looks like ron from harry potter..my throat hurts..colds suck..right now im making my nails all sexy..white with pink designs :) 2morrow fred and his whole team leave :( this makes me sad..i wish they could have stayed longer..oh well..im thristy so im gonna go get some vanilla coke :) buh bye..

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 21:01:04 GMT

cassies superly sexy watch..

the birthday girl is shy..

me..

cass {not knowing ian was taking a pic}..

courtyouis also shy {yet she sin a another pic l8r}..

cass's eye??

mine & nailahs shoes {nice pic naily}..

ian..

sabby & kevin

kevin doing a 'trick'..

kevins & my things..

ian laying on top of me..

ian laying on me again..

sabby posing..

ian {is in love with his shirt}..

eliha & court..

jillan {as im walking away}..

yup..2day i had a free second and then me..2day i staretd writting this story {not for any class or anything like that..just 2 write}its really long and i still havent finished it yet..its a depressing story but its kinda cool..i was imspired by the bok 'cut'..it inspirerd me..thats kinda werid..oh well..9th pr me and stef cut..we hung out with jamie and then we were talking 2 jake & omar..l8r we saw evan {in 11th grd} and hes like 'is ur hair naurtually striaght' and i said no and hes all 'is ur hair like ur brothers' and i said 'sorta just less curely' and hes all 'oh urs is less black than his'..hehe..that kid is funny..l8r i get 2 hang with stefy :)

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 03:35:07 GMT

2day was ok..i think my math teacher is on 2 me about cutting class..but on th. i have an actuall reason 2 cut {hehe} 2day i stayed after school with some coolio ppl..i had the song 'im a little tea pott' stuck in my head but i kept on 4getting the words so court wrote them on my stomach so i wouldnt 4get..were 2 cool..ian said i had a beer belly {he sounds like edwin} but the omars like 'no shes just skinny'..rnt beer belly and skinny 2 different things tho??..oh well..oh and..i may be the last to do this but {dont do it, u can consider urself dead?}..

01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
07. my age:
08. birthday:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. my color eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm good looking:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
26. What do you think my weakness is?:
27. Do you think I'll get married?:
28. What makes me happy?:
29. What makes me sad?:
30. What reminds you of me?:
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
32. When's the last time you saw me?:
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?:
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?:
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?:
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?:
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?:
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?:
39. Would you make a move on me?:
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?:

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 01:11:52 GMT

under construction {again}

..trying to repimp my lj cause it isnt cool enough :) so if u see my lj looking messed up over the next few days..have no worries..emily is here to make her lj normal again..trying 2 do hw but cant concentrate so im in a chat room with cass court alex & brad and we all want each other 2 comment on each others lj..wat an overly interesting time we r having..today i painted my nails some werid redish- pinky thing..i like the color better in the bottle :( ..i think sometime im gonna paint my nails all white and then take a baby pink and make a desing over the white..thatd look cool..wat design should i put on my nail?! on sunday we r having a danish exchange student come 2 our house..edwins on varsity & the vasristy time is having a danish team come 2 america and spend a nigth at a players house..then on the next day they get 2 play each other in basketball and b4 the game they exchange gifts..this will be a game im not missing {& edwin said i could take pics of the danish kid that we get}..which reminds me..every person that i have told 'oh im getting a danish kid 4 a day' they have said back to me something like 'o0o0oh emilys gonna be with some hott danish kid'..when i told cass we planned it so that if the danish kid is hott that ill 'mistakenly' go into the bathroom when hes in there and some how have a camera in my hand..wat ever shall i take pics of?!

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 02:07:54 GMT

today was a pretty boring day..im proud of my slef cause i actually went 2 math and stayed the whole time!! it was such a lonnnng class..it was werid having a ful pr of math {i had skipped most of math class 4 the last week 4 those of u hoo didnt no}..2day stef was in lunch pr. so me her & ian were outside and i was trying 2 do my scince hw but the 2 of them didnt no wat the fuck was going on and they were being all werid and i was really trying hard 2 concentrate on my hw {cough} and they said i was getting mad and ian was all 'awwwww emily ur so cute when ur mad' and id be like 'wtf do u mean im cute when im mad..im just trying 2 get some hw done 4 a change' and ians all 'aww see your so cute..stef did u see how cute she was'..i didnt no cute = a mad emily ?! did u no that?! i bet u didnt!! 2night my mom gave me this new nailpolish..it spelt good..did i write about friday night?! did i?! i do not no..anyways friday i went 2 the mall with cass & court and we met nicole & stef there and it seemed like everyone we new was there..and i had promised my self that id be good and wouldnt take anything {even wore a tank tip so i wouldnt be able 2} and wat do i do?! i fucking take stuff..gr8 job emily..

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 22:10:56 GMT

just like on pimp my ride :) yesterday me court cass & stef cut the assembly and just hung out..it was fun but 2day we had 2 talk about it and i had no idea wat was going on..oh well..then domitrie scared me and said we might have 2 write some essay thing on it and i was like fuck no!!we started doing the wave {in a way} with the toilets..very excitting..then i cut part of math and went into courts & stefs lunch pr..today was sorta boring..again i cut math to go into there lunch pr..god dam it i wish i had there lunch pr..2morrows friday :) thank god..wat ever shall we do 2morrow girlies..i think 2morrow ill wear an outfit that every1 thinks i look cute in..hink hink..hehe..buh bye

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 03:02:31 GMT

2day was pretty sweet..haha i used the word sweet in describing my day..me and naihla cut 3rd {gym/wellness}..we saw these hot jrs so we were following them a little and then we were like 'go down this hall way so they dont no we r following them' but then they went in there class room and that was that..we got cookies :) naihla said that my outfits {that i dont wear on gym days} are cool..it made me feel sepical 4..the i cut math {6th pr}..sooooo fun..it was courts stefs & jackies lunch pr and cass cut also..me and cass got sooo high cause we were cutting and we were like screaming in the cafeiteria and jumping around and spinning each other..it was entertaining..i think some ppl thought we were completely smoking right b4 6th..oh well..then since i left my books in my 6th pr class i made ian go back and get them with me at the break between 6th anf 7th but there was a class in there and i was scared 2 go in {hehe} a sephmore more said i could go in so i did..then me and ian went 2 my locker and than 2 lunch and we met up with naihla {hoo had a free then}then the 3 of us met up with sabby & kevin and went outside 2 the gazbo..me and naihla got scared of the guys so we sat in the chairs that were out there and then ian decided he would show me his ass..after school i hung out with cass court ian & evan..me and evan were blancing on the red thingy by the track and the track ppl go mad {hehe} then when we were walking towards south woods the lacross team was likt running our way and ians like 'aaaaaa u guys..i think we should move'..it was scarey seeing a ballion guys from lacross run at u..then we went back 2 the hs and hung out with jackie jillian sabby brianna travis..meet omar..than i went home and hoo did i get 2 hang out with?!? none other than tery & robert..i miss then cause i never see them anymore :( we hung out at terys house 4 a little and then i had 2 go 2 the ortho..& there u have it ladys & gents..emily marie shantzs wounderful day..

p.s.--today i wore the necklace & earing court got me and they were hott {jus like my socks yesterday {hehe}}

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 03:43:29 GMT

November 13, 2003 & November 13, 2004
^^days i officaly hate & can die^^

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seems that i have had the worst two fucking birthdays in a row..as if last year wasnt bad enought..we had this years fucking birthday!!..i hope next year we can just skip november 13 and go from the 12th to the 14th..and wats the point of asking for a gift when you dont even fucking get that one that i wanted..i hate you..hope you no that you bitchy fat ass whore

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to my friends that got me something 4 my birthday..i love you..the thing above is for my fucked up family hoo i hope dies from something terribly horrible..fucking jackasses

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 02:47:11 GMT

havent updated in a while..not gonna write about every single thing ive done since my last update like i usually do..saw tery robert & edward..halloween was good {we got onads}..stole somoe more stuff..aaa say wat {hoo said that}..lifes been interesting..ya

the other day edwin dumbed the popcorn on my head and repeativly said 'HAHA U HAVE POPCORN AND SALT ALL OVER YOUR HAIR'..nice brother..ehh?

today i was studing..right..well i feel asleep studing..edwin came into my room woke me up and asked me wat i was doing so i said 'wat do i think im doing' {said that cause i thought it was a trick ? and didnt no wat 2 say} edwin asked me wat i was doing again..so i looked at the clock hoping the time would remind me of something i had 2 do..the clock said 8:02..so i said 2 edwin 'oh shit..we're late 4 school' and i got up really quick and then stopped when i noticed edwin was just standing there laughing at me..ya..it was 8:02 AT NIGHT MOTHER FUCKERS..go me and my telling time skills..now i feel way 2 awake..cause when i find out im late 4 school i always go really fast and i went really fast and now im feel really awake and sorta tired at the same time..good night to that..

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 17:37:31 GMT

You Are a Little Scary

You've got a nice edge to you. Use it.

How scary are you?

hehe..on wed. we had an ax fit after school..see i stole kevins ax during the day and then after school i had the smart idea of getting a lighter and using it with the ax so me cas court justin & hunz were lighting it a little {in the gazibo..made completely out of wood} and then we seekevin coming so me and justin run with the ax so kevin doesnt see it..but then as we go back to them, justin sprays me like crazy with the ax..then all the guys just kept on spraying me cass & court with the ax all over..our legs, arms, body, even my hair!! smelt like ax..then we finally stopped atfer ten hours of doing this..and we went out by the late busses but jillian is allregic 2 ax and we smelt like it sooo much so she started coughing really bad..i felt bad cause u could smell us from far away {me court & alex tested it out}..thursday we had 2 help out with FLA for setting up 4 a halloween party at baylis..we walked 2 the plainveiw shoping center and back..then we had 2 set up spider webs outside on the bushes..it took the 3 of us like 40 min cause we had noooo idea wat so ever of wat we were doing..4 being so boring it was actually pretty fun..and yesterday me and cassie went 2 the south grove party and were hanging out with tery and robert and then edward came a little later..it was fun..and then later me and court might go catch a movie..to-da-loo

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 01:39:30 GMT

highlight near the smilie face on the last entry..the colors got messed up..hehe

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 01:33:46 GMT

havent written all week cause the internet was shit {computer has a virus}..

tuesday: i wore my new skirt and everyone said i looked cute {even my stoner english teacher} cass said that shed even bang me if she was a guy..stayed after school with cass court & some other coolio ppl

wedensday: school was boring..then we had confirmation practice {edwin had 2 come and he was entertaining a little bit}..i wouldnt mind going 2 catholic school {an all boys catholic school}..heres a biggy 4 the day..RED SOX mother fucker..RED beautiful SOX won game 7 agaisnt the yankees..game 1 of the world series is on now actually..boston winning already {4-2}

thursday: wore my boston hat and made my own boston shirt 4 school..jillian and zach practilly raped me 1st pr..2nd pr my teacher gave me evil eyes..4rd pr the other zach & dan were giving me 5 fives and cheering 4 me..5th & 6th pr ppl either told me 2 take it off r claped 4 me..7th me and kevin traded hats cause were cool and then adam took my hat and was going 2 throw it away but he was nice and gave it back..8th & 9th sorta went like 5th & 6th

friday: boring day at school but terribly interesting when we stayed after..went 2 the mall with court & cass..saw scott with his friend, nikki, gabby, evan, zach, moses, & stef with austin molly..we went 2 target again 2 do u no wat {hehe}..then cass was with ely most of the ngiht so me and court were all like going in to random stores and having fun there {i bet the ppl watching us were having fun also}

today: confirmation {last time i see catholic school guys unless i sneek into 1 of there dances )': }..its was pretty boring..saw anna marie and brianna there..then i went out 2 dinner..i got some moolaa so im gonna save it 4 my darkroom and cds :)

ya..thats about it..pretty boring life..got bored and jillian said 2 write every day but since i just dont i wrote about every day this week :) ..hehe gotta get back 2 my 'fucking' convo with ian..buh bye

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 00:06:29 GMT

'so when i see you, ill tip my hat for you, but dont worry, cause you want have to no im there. you ruined my heart so i guess ill ruin you life'

today was going to be good..then it just sucked..and got even suckier..it was good cause 5th i had a free and me and stef ate and 'slept' in the student lobby..then a few periods went by and u became mad at me, or wat i think was mad at me..then afetr school i looked for u, and when i found u, u werent up for talking..it seemed like you were good to go with sluts tho..

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 19:27:23 GMT

last night = amazing times..bought my green belt from pacsun..its sooo sexy..spent some gr8 time in target with cass and court{and some thongs and makeup i suppose} then we saw alanna hung out with her but then me and court went with jake {harasser} and nick..found alanna and cass again..went outside in the rain all over..alanna was pushing cass in a shoppingcart..we saw a truck..me and court thought about the movie joyride..got scared so we ran, ditching cass and alanna..went by the parking garge and got scared by these 3 guys there..went inside with are pants soaking half up our leg..me and court thought we saw sabby go into this back door thing thats not 4 ppl 2 go into so we asked some girls by the door wat the guy looked like hoo just went in the door..it sounded like sabby..so we went in the doors looking 4 him..as the doors closed one of the girls said 'those girls are cool' {haha (: }didnt find sabby..turns out we were where they cook the food 4 the food court..hid in a bathroom cause we heard workers and got scared..went back out & talked 2 those girls 4 another sec..didnt find sabby in there :( ..found cass and alanna..ate fries & coke..hung out some more with other ppl we saw there

2day we had reconsliation 4 confirmation..b4 i went in i was taking 2 cass and gabby..we had no fucking idea wat 2 say..'sorry father i have sinned'..i should have said wat i did last night :) but i didnt so thats that..then after words i was hanging with cass court emily and kevin..then they all left and katie came out & talked 2 her..everyone was sooo scared..it was kinda funny..kinda interesting..

its been good..

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 00:00:52 GMT

on sat. cass came over..we saw kariokie to fall out boy and taking back sunday and we did some other cool stuff..on sun. i went 2 the anellos with edwin..it was interesting..2day was boring

mrs krohn said that i have a low self esteam cause i dont capitlize my name..she said that shes 'there to talk to me' and that if i want i can 'give here anything ive written on my own for her 2 look at but not count as a grade'..the only thing i write that isnt 4 school is songs..and no 1 sees them but me sweet heart..sry 2 burst ur bubble..

now i gotta go get ready 4 2morrow..1st day of boston vs yankees..that means big day at school 2morrow..bring it on sudha and dan..errrr